…im struggling with my desire to rekindle an old flame. and with the only person who ever got me right. the only person who knew how to make me feel good. even though i know that if i do, i run the risk of incinerating this brand new haven that i’ve built within myself and that at the end of it all i’ll be left with little more than smoldering ashes and musty smoke, all in an attempt to chase some long forsaken high.
how easily we forget. and how easy it is to go back to what you know. to what you’re used to. because although it might not have been the best for you, it was comfortable…familiar.
dont do it to yourself, Tru.
i so badly need to let go.
the past few days have been quite interesting. to say the least.
it’s funny the things that life brings your way. pretty amusing actually.
anyhow i got some potentially wonderful news today. fingers crossed, i hope all goes in my favor. although i know it will. blessings just seem to be falling into my lap these days. and i’m extremely thankful.
today i had a long talk with my mother and she really opened up to me. it felt really good especially because we often clash but she shared her frustrations, her feelings, asked my advice, and i gave it. my parents are having a ceremony to renew their vows next month after very nearly splitting a few months ago and all in all, im glad about it. i still need to find a dress. but if nothing i am learning that God is undeniably real and is very much working wonders in my life.
and that makes me very happy.
a reminder [for me] to keep writing
Outkast - “Hold On, Be Strong”
cause…sometimes you just need a minute.
one of my go to’s when i need to woosa.